I Remember When

I originally wrote this on March 1st 2007, while I was in Master's Commission. Mom and I had not been seeing eye to eye on some issues, and this seemed to be the only way I could communicate how I was really feeling to her. But as I look back on it now, I realize that I didn't write this just for my mom, I was writing it to every person who has ever told me I cannot achieve the dreams and visions that God has placed in my heart. Reading it now encourages me more to continue to chase after that which God has given me, and to never back down. Hopefully it can do the same for some of you as well.


I remember when....

You told me I could be anything I wanted to be.

You told me to chase after my dreams.

You told me to never give up or give in.

You told me to seek him above all else.

You told me to pursue my goals until I achieved them.

You told me to never let go.

Now....

I'm asking you to allow me to be what I want to be.

I'm asking you to allow me to chase my dreams.

I'm asking you to not allow me to give up or give in.

I'm asking you to allow me to seek Him above all else.

I'm asking you to allow me to achieve my goals.

I'm asking you not to make me let go.

And....

You may not understand what I want to be.

You may not understand my dreams.

You may not understand why I won't give up or give in.

You may not understand how I am seeking Him above all else.

You may not understand the goals I am pursuing.

You may not understand why I won't let go.

But....

God has His hand on what I am becoming.

God has His on my dreams.

God does not want me to give up or give in.

God knows I am seeking Him above all else.

God is helping me achieve my goals.

God won't allow me to let go.

Sometimes God plans things that go seem to contradict what I've always wanted. But as He is revealing those things to me, I am responding in obedience. I don't always understand the things that have happened, but I do understand that they have placed me exactly where I am supposed to be right now. I am more clear on that than I have ever been. So as His voice continues to lead me down His path, I will continue to follow it, no matter what the odds.